my every day life

In response to:why do i cut myself

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 23:06:08 +0200

Hi I just cut myself, sharp tweezers, cant understand why bt I feel better. Cut 3 times, Knee. belly and upper arm. I am lost. Too much to think about and am angry at everything. If I told anyone, they would think that I am mad. I'm not, just venting my anger. Soooooo angry at myself. I know it's not only me. I know how hard it is... Life. so for all of you out there, remember....There is always a way forward. tomorrow will come and it can't rain forever, apart from in my life! x Stop cuting, it does not achieve anything..Just a scar. Remember to be yourselves.. Til the end. Be strong, be positive, be thoughtful, be a good friend/mother/brother/sister and SMILE - You are normal, just think a bit too much! x

In response to:why do i cut myself

Thu, 28 May 2009 02:33:08 +0200

i also cut myself, its only when im depressed though, it destracts me from wats really going on in my life, and makes me focus on the pain im feeling from the cut, e-mail or txt me next time u think about it, ill try to help u.

Chrishstttr@comcast.net
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In response to:why do i cut myself

Wed, 27 May 2009 02:49:09 +0200

hi how are you get in touch with me poikilotherm join my blogg

In response to:Im updating my blog just to say how my progress is getting along

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 01:05:26 +0200

Thanks thats what i thought as i was writng about how i am getting along. Thanks quite a few people say that about my smile. Hope you good

In response to:Im updating my blog just to say how my progress is getting along

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 01:01:52 +0200

Hey thanks i thought it was about time i updated on my progress so thats why i done it. Thanks i wouldnt go as far as lovely though but glad you liked it so much

In response to:Im updating my blog just to say how my progress is getting along

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 23:52:46 +0200

That's brilliant, you look so lovely in ur pic u have a lovely smile i'm so pleased for u! :) x

In response to:Im updating my blog just to say how my progress is getting along

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 23:43:12 +0200

Thanks for the update , so glad to hear that you're getting on well , you look so lovely in the photo !

In response to:My therapist is leaving

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 00:28:57 +0200

Good Luck Rosie , and let us know how you get on , with kind regards , ~ Martin .

In response to:My therapist is leaving

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 23:44:37 +0200

Your right thats what im going to do tomorrow morning go and get appointment with her for the last time and say how i feel, ive got an appointment with the other person in 2 weeks time to meet up with them and to see if i get on with them.
Thanks for your comment

In response to:My therapist is leaving

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 19:25:28 +0200

I'd suggest maybe seeing her one more time and telling her how you feel , at least she can reassure you that she's not leaving 'cause of you , though I know it's hard and it must feel like that ,
and it'd be worth seeing whoever can replace her as your therapist just once just to see how you get on with them . .

In response to:Ive had a really weird week

Fri, 30 May 2008 23:34:57 +0200

We all need to stay positive - is'nt always easy though , I expect that if you had a loving , supportive partner ( do'nt worry , I'm a long way away and that's not an offer ! ) that would help ;
I've been wondering how you are and if you'd return to your 'blog ; Glad to know that you're getting some help , and hoping you'll feel better again soon ,
- Martin . - x - .

In response to:Ive had a really weird week

Fri, 30 May 2008 13:06:42 +0200

Thanks

In response to:Ive had a really weird week

Fri, 30 May 2008 11:56:05 +0200

In response to:ive had a busy day

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 01:44:36 +0200

Rosie,

It soudns liek your life is pretty fucked up - if anything, reading stories from people who have been delt a shitty hand by life, actually makes me feel great. I dont mean this in a bad way - but a spade is a spade with me i guess.

Anyway, ive been reading your blog - and have noticed that everytime someone comments, you respond with a seperate comment.

This is inefficient as teh person will not know you have responded to their individual comment.

To rectify this, make sure and click the 'REPLY to comment' link, instead of the 'LEAVE comment' link - this way, your friends will recieve an Email notification when you reply to what they have said about your posts.

Hope this helps, and again - Good luck with whatever you do.

B :]

In response to:ive had a busy day

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 02:40:13 +0200

(((hugs)))

In response to:ive had a busy day

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 09:29:49 +0200

Hey thats ok i dont expect a message for every blog i do. Thanks for the adveice about the ice though i hvent even been thinking abut doing it to myself in over 2 weeks but if i do then i will get some ice or do the red pen and draw on my arm.

In response to:ive had a busy day

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 01:15:13 +0100

Hi Rosie,

Sorry I haven't been in touch, I didn't realise you'd be blogging. My ex partners mother used to self harm, and I asked her to do it another way because she was doing it everyday.

And what that was is to frezze a big piece of ice, and keep it in the frezzer at all times - then when you feel like cutting yourself, get the ice out and hold it in your hands over the sink for as long as you can. You will get the pain from it, without hurting yourself. -
It has worked for her and she hasn't cut her arms for over 3 months..
please give it a try. And tell your Doctor that you need anti-depressants, thats what I did.
And if you get nowhere I suggest you change doctors.
Good Luck Sweetie, hopefully chat soon x

In response to:ive had a busy day

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 23:16:58 +0100

Ive got someone coming in to tell me about whats going to happen in the group so i will see then but at the moment i dont think i can talk in a group situation. Hopefully they will come up with another solution like you say.

In response to:i want to go but i cant

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 23:14:19 +0100

I went for a short while and so ive achieved going somewhere. Thanks for the drink.

In response to:ive had a busy day

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 22:23:50 +0100

I think your right,i don't think group therapy is right for u and you should tell them and see what other solution they can come up with.

In response to:i want to go but i cant

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 21:43:17 +0100

brill,hope u have a good night have a drink on me :) x

In response to:i want to go but i cant

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 01:24:43 +0100

hey yeah your right it is a step forward and it will help me get some confidence. Ive told her all about me feeling nervous about going and she says that she understands and will help me in anyway possible to see me.

In response to:i want to go but i cant

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 00:10:34 +0100

you should go,it will be another step forward,what you should do is tell your friend u are nervous and get her mobile no and phone when u are nearly there so she can meet u outside,that's what i do even if i am going to meet my sisters,i wouldn't have the confidence to walk into anywhere myself either.Go it may help ur confidence or u can just let off steam boogeying. trinax.

In response to:i want to go but i cant

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 18:00:19 +0100

Thanks for trying to understand, i think your maybe right if i can tell her what i going through then maybe she can understand why im finding it hard to go, if i can go for a short time then i can leave saying that ive achieved going out. Your right i got used to working in a bar so therefore i can do this.

In response to:i want to go but i cant

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 17:43:37 +0100

Not stupid Rosie , I can relate to some of that myself , maybe you could explain your anxiety to your friend who invited you , and if they are any sort of understanding person hopefully they can help you to work out a way that you could go without it seeming too daunting -
It would be good if you could find someone who understands your anxiety to accompany you ; you'd probably soon start to relax and enjoy it , but if not , just quietly leave and get a taxi home ?
You got used to meeting new people at the bar you work at , and once you get used to another new situation I'm sure you'll be fine . .

In response to:i know i need help and im getting it its just hard

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 09:04:27 +0100

Hi Rosie,

Happy Easter - I think once your free blogs run out, because you only get a certain amount. Then you have to pay monthly to continue blogging - and I think that's when you become a pro.. (which is a bit silly really, because my blogs aren't that great.) I sell all different things on E-bay -clothes-old toys and just general shite, as people will buy anything.
what sort of dolls do you sell for your mum- I dont suppose they are those Re-born doll's are they ?..Have you seen them, they are amazing ! Take care have a nice day.

In response to:i know i need help and im getting it its just hard

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 00:53:56 +0100

What does a pro mean. Yeah i love drumming i dont do it that much anymore as i used to be in a marching and travel around the country. I support southampton they are really shit at the moment. Yeah cooking helps me relax and i get to make a mess. Yeah i love ebay the selling but most of all the buying. I help sell dolls for my mum whos not very good on the computer. What do you sell. Talk to you tomorrow if youve gone to bed night. Well ill support you even though i dont know you really know you.

In response to:i know i need help and im getting it its just hard

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 00:47:39 +0100

Please dont forget Rosie..I'm I PRO..dont ya know...Do you really like drumming and football ???? I love the cooking and mega into E-bay ( big time seller ) Ha Ha,

But not Football..Who do you support ??

I support myself, cause no other fucker does. Good night honey x

In response to:i know i need help and im getting it its just hard

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 00:41:11 +0100

cool cant wait. Rosie your new stalker

In response to:i know i need help and im getting it its just hard

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 00:40:30 +0100

I will so annoy you more !!

Big Hugs xx