Ive just read someones blog and their friend is dying of lung cancer and heres me wallowing in self pity getting nowhere. I should get over it and be positive as im pretty healthy unlike this poor persons friend.

Today i went to my therapist again as i havent being in nearly a month but i was desperate to talk to someone. In the last week ive cut myself twice, being suicidal and when i try and talk to anyone i say the wrong thing.

So anyway i went and i told her how i was feeling and she thinks that it maybe a good idea to have the crisis team look on me everyday at my house. So i may take her idea on seen as i feel really sh*t, mind due i think we all have days like what i have this week.

I just need to stay positive and i know people are out there giving me some kind of support but im the only one that can make things better.