I know that i need help and that im doing the right thing by going its just really annoying when i dont know what to do when i feel so low and that im at home, i mean theyve given me all these numbers to contact when i feel really low but the point is that i find it impossible to pick the phone up and talk to someone. Even if i did talk to samaritians or saneline all they could do is listen to me and not give me any advice on what to do. Ive got my counsellors out of hours number but i think that i would be wasting her time or that shes right and i need to take anti depressents. I should be able to work out what is wrong with me on my own without asking for help.