It's never easy dealing with counselling, my god I know that, and sometimes knowing what to do for the best when it comes to who to talk to and about what can be just as bad as actually dealing with the issues you are having the counselling about. All I can say to you is three things;

1. If you really thought that you could work it all out by yourself you wouldn't be going to a counsellor in the first place.

2. The fact that you have accepted that you can't do it alone is a good thing and don't forget that these kind of dilemas are what they are there for.

3. Sometimes anti-depresants can be a good thing if they are low dosage and only for a limited time, they can help you to get your mind clear of stuff so you can get focused on issues.

I really hope that you can work things out and that your counsellor helps you. Good luck with everything.

You're very brave, when I had similar problems, I didn't dare to say it aloud, because I didn't want to be judged or bother people. Those people who gave you their numbers did so because they Chose to have this job, in order to help people. I understand, but keep those numbers for when you feel you need them, just in case. With the talking you do with your counsellor, you provide the answers, you just need someone who isn't being affected by the emotions to analyse them.

I really think you're doing great. I normally think people should write down emotions, not just how they feel, but why they feel it. And do so in the most honest way possible. I don't know though, anything you can put emotion into gives you a way to express your problems without hurting yourself.

I'd offer my own number to you but I doubt it'd help your situation. Anyone here would be glad to help you though. Good luck with the rest of your sessions, take care

i dont feel very brave even though i am getting help. Ive always got the numbers if i need someone to talk to but this is the very problem about talking to someone but ill see. I know that there people on here that can support me.

Hi Rosie,

I am really sorry if my last comment offend you, I really didn't mean it to turn out that way at all.. I was a bit drunk when I left it, and when I was reading your blogs I have to be honest here now - Deep down I thought " wow this is only me, that this happens to ". I cant write fully what has happend to me..I am to ashamed at the moment. But what I said about it being in your head..Is only because I am a bit older than you and I was told for ten years " That what I thought was in my head ". And you end up thinking that all the badness is down to you. And it's not ! I really am sorry..If you ever need anyone to speak to, if you message me I will give you my number.

All these telephone line's wont help you babe, you have to believe in yourself Rosie..Your as good as the next person..You work, your Honest..your a young girl, who doesn't know what she wants yet...One day you will look back at this and think, oh my lordy...Please believe me, no-one is better than you XXXX

Thanks Rosie x

thanks for that message, i just didnt know what you meant thats all i didnt take any offence to it though. Its just your opinon and im happy to hear it. So no worries. I will message you then just to annoy you, lol. Rosie

I will so annoy you more !!

Big Hugs xx

cool cant wait. Rosie your new stalker

Please dont forget Rosie..I'm I PRO..dont ya know...Do you really like drumming and football ???? I love the cooking and mega into E-bay ( big time seller ) Ha Ha,

But not Football..Who do you support ??

I support myself, cause no other fucker does. Good night honey x

What does a pro mean. Yeah i love drumming i dont do it that much anymore as i used to be in a marching and travel around the country. I support southampton they are really shit at the moment. Yeah cooking helps me relax and i get to make a mess. Yeah i love ebay the selling but most of all the buying. I help sell dolls for my mum whos not very good on the computer. What do you sell. Talk to you tomorrow if youve gone to bed night. Well ill support you even though i dont know you really know you.

Hi Rosie,

Happy Easter - I think once your free blogs run out, because you only get a certain amount. Then you have to pay monthly to continue blogging - and I think that's when you become a pro.. (which is a bit silly really, because my blogs aren't that great.) I sell all different things on E-bay -clothes-old toys and just general shite, as people will buy anything.
what sort of dolls do you sell for your mum- I dont suppose they are those Re-born doll's are they ?..Have you seen them, they are amazing ! Take care have a nice day.