well i made it through my session today it went ok really no problems, I just wish i could open up a bit more easier to her as i think that if i say something to her she may judge me. I think she finds it hard to know what to talk to me about as i dont give much out which must be hard. One day i would like to share that ive got problems with accepting myself as im bi but ill come to that subject when i feel the right time is to tell her. Whenever i go in there i feel like falling asleep. The downside to today was that i couldnt stop crying maybe its because ive shared whats going on but it was hard to keep the tears away. Ive got another appointment booked for next friday so i shall see what will happen.
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- 17.03.2008 @ 23:30:10
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rosie1986
- 17.03.2008 @ 23:37:19
Thanks for that comment i needed to see that im slowly getting there.
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trintrin1x
- 18.03.2008 @ 14:35:44
just take it at your own pace,they are not there to judge you,it will get easier and don't worry there isn't anything you can say that would shock them,take care.
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- 18.03.2008 @ 23:45:52
Dont worry about having no friends outside of work. Nothing wrong with it.
Unfortunately, Paul sounds like a class-A Cunt. If your going to make any friends at all, make some that will give him a good kicking.
Going to see someone about your problems proves that your strong enough to know when enough is enough with regards to you feeling miserable, this should make you happy above all else.
Realise that life is shitty, It has more downs than ups, and tends to get harder the older you get. The important thing to note is that you only get one shot at it - shitty or not, so make the most of your time here.
I assume you are able bodied, and free of terminal illness. These two facts alone mean that you are in a better position than most to have a fulfilling existance here on earth.
Dont let the Bastards get you down, Grab fate by the balls and kick him in the teeth. Works for me.
Good luck.
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rosie1986
- 19.03.2008 @ 00:07:07
Thanks for your comment i will take it on board. Im starting to meet people on the net which im quite happy about. I guess all ive got is the people inside work that could do something to paul. I know that i need help and that im doing the right thing. By you saying that life gets harder as you get older doesnt hold much for me as im 21 now and if your right i will get worse. I am abled bodied and i dont have a terminal illness. Well luckily paul will be leaving really soon and so i wont have to deal with him anymore.
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It sounds like you're beginning to build up a trusting therapaeutic relationship with your counsellor or therapist , which obviously takes a while , but you're doing well - and I'm sure that , if she's any good at her job at all she would never harshly 'judge' you - at least not unless with a very obviously , very serious reason to - and being bi or gay , in our society today is no crime or sin whatsoever , nor should it be , all good wishes , ~ martin .