my every day life

well i made it through my session today it went ok really no problems, I just wish i could open up a bit more easier to her as i think that if i say something to her she may judge me. I think she finds it hard to know what to talk to me about as i dont give much out which must be hard. One day i would like to share that ive got problems with accepting myself as im bi but ill come to that subject when i feel the right time is to tell her. Whenever i go in there i feel like falling asleep. The downside to today was that i couldnt stop crying maybe its because ive shared whats going on but it was hard to keep the tears away. Ive got another appointment booked for next friday so i shall see what will happen.

Ive got an appointment today with the specialists im going to see them as they dont have time this week to come out to my home and visit me, but after that i hope they will be able to come to my house as i feel more comfortable at home although that could be a challenge for me to keep on going to see them. In some ways i dont really see the point of going to see them as i feel great and i think that im wasting there time, but on the other hand i dont want to return to my old self when i was really depressed and couldnt be bothered so in the end i will go, im still not to sure how they are going to support me but i will find this out when i go. They said that they wil support me for at least 3 months and then review my progress then after that i will see.