so why don't you resign and take a holiday. Worry about it when you come back

Good point maybe i will have a holiday as im entitled to some. I dont know about resigning though that sounds a bit drastic but maybe.

Taking a holiday is a great idea, go and do something you enjoy and come back a little less stressed. Have you been given ideas of how to stop your panic attacks? My Doctor gave me an incredibly good book to read, sort of like a self help program. I didn't even finish it, and my attacks were pretty severe.

You just need to find something you can enjoy doing, if all you have to look forward to is a job where you don't feel appreciated then it'll be hard to see the point. What did you enjoy doing at school? What are you interested in?

I think you just need a well deserved break Take care x

No i just take beta blockers for them, ive got a self help book at home which helps sometimes. What was the self help book that you thought was good. I liked physical things like p.e and technology where you make and cook stuff when i was at school. Nowadays i just dont know what i like. I will try and think of something that i like doing. I will try and take a holiday just away from it all for a couple of days.

Do you know anyone who you could go on holiday with , like , a week or two in a nice hotel at a nice resort maybe in the algarve ?
That may be just the tonic you need , though I respect that some people do'nt like travelling .
I'm sure you'd be fully entitled to be signed off of work for at least a month , though maybe another job , in a quieter , gentler environment might be much better for you ?

No im one of those people that dont like travelling. Ill try and leave this area for a couple of days and invit someone to join me as theyve got a couple of days off coming up soon. Ill see what my doctor says this week. Maybe your right i just thought being in a pub was the answer to get some confidence.

You really need to have a break, your work is not helping you feel better and if you can just get away for even a few days with a friend it could make a big difference. Please never feel alone we always here for you i suffer badly from depression and the support from my friends in blogland are my lifeline to keep me sane. *big hug*

Work is the only thing that i do other then that i dont do anything. I always feel alone but I dont know how to talk when i feel really depressed for no apparent reason. Thanks for your hug it helps.

Hope you get the chance to have a break,working all the hours god sends is not good for you phyisicly either(sorry probably spelt that wrong)at least if you cant go on holiday ask your doctor to get you some stress management sessions,my friend gets them n she gets massages amd reiki which really help her,trinax.

ive managed to get off 3 days this week which isnt to bad, i think it has helped me without having to work, but if i need some relaxation i will ask my doctor about stress management.